Thursday, September 20, 2012

Hello Fall!

I love Fall! It is by far my most favorite time of year. (I do love Christmas too!) I love a gentle breeze on a cool afternoon, leaves rolling down the street, the smell of damp grass caused by the morning dew, playing outside with my boys, football, pumpkins, pumpkin spice lattes, well I think you get the idea though I could go on and on. Our first "cold front" moved in about 2 weeks ago. (yes, I am behind on posting) It brought cooler temps, our first glimpse of fall, and allergies, ear infections, and colds. Both of my boys ended up sick but I am still so glad that Fall is here! I feel like I am playing catch up due to them being sick. I'm going to cut this post short, add a few pics, and try to catch up. Maybe one of these days I won't be behind! 

Let's Be Real

*Let me start this out by saying that I have more good days than bad. I don't completely bash myself in any way. I just need to get this out so that I can start to move forward.*

Here it goes: I'm a fat girl! I have not always been this way and I really don't want to stay this way. I weighed myself on Tuesday and was absolutely disgusted by the 177 that popped up. That's 5 pounds above my "normal" 172. I've been 172 for the past 4 years. I can't even blame being pregnant with 2 babies the last 2 years. I was 172 when I got pregnant with Seth, lost it all, got pregnant with Caleb, lost the baby weight and stayed at 172. And in the last month I've gained 5 pounds that doesn't seem to be going anywhere. I have been taking some amazing vitamins & dietary supplements, and I honestly feel better, but they're not going to melt away the fat! Back in February we bought a pretty expensive elliptical machine. We rekindled our love/hate relationship today. I know why I am overweight, I know what I have to do to fix it, I am just full of excuses. Today, I declare NO MORE! I don't want to be a fat girl. I want to be happy & healthy. I want to feel confident in my own skin, no matter where I am or who I'm with. It's not going to happen over night. It's not going to be easy. But it will be worth it! I constantly feel like I am being judged based on how I look. When, the truth is, I am constantly judging myself. And what I say to myself, in my head or out loud, is not very nice. It's not healthy. It's not good. So, again...NO MORE!!!! I am committing to positive self talk, affirmations, post its on mirrors, exercising, making better food choices, etc. It may seem silly but reading positive words out loud to yourself can do wonders. I used to do this a long time ago. So, I am working on my notes and putting them up where I can see them. Not just in my bathroom, but places I spend the most time-the kitchen, by the boys changing tables, in the car, I need to be able to see them often to remind myself that this is a journey and I am worth it. I am also going to quit making excuses to not exercise-my kids are my reason not my excuse! I am also going to be a product of my product. My It Works products are amazing! I am using everything consistently enough that I should begin to actually see changes soon. I am going to start the meal replacement shakes too. I think that will really boost my weight loss efforts. The most amazing product though is this crazy little wrap thing called the Ultimate Body Applicator. I cannot even begin to tell you how amazing it is. I am going to go way out of my comfort zone and post my very own before and after pic. This is really hard for me to do, so I'm begging you, please don't judge, if you don't have anything nice to say then please don't say anything. (I have tears in my eyes just typing this) That's how hard this is for me-because I'm ashamed and embarrassed. But the whole point of this post is to get out of my comfort zone and begin to make a change. I don't want to be a fat girl anymore. I want to be a happy, healthy, attractive wife, mommy, friend.

(After 2 wraps, 4.5 inches lost)
(Also using Defining Gel)
So good bye fat girl!
Hello, Happy~Healthy~Soon to be Wealthy~Me!

Wednesday, September 12, 2012

First Day of Day School

Last winter, I found myself with an almost toddler and an infant. I had my hands doubly full. It was then that I started looking into a MDO (moms day out) of some sort for Seth. I wasn't able to find anything close to home that would allow me to enroll him at that time. When Spring rolled around there was Day School enrolling for the Fall. I hauled the boys up there to take a look around and get more info. I decided I liked the people, the structure, and the location so I signed them both up.

Tuesday, the 4th, was our first day at Day School. We went to bed earlier the night before because we have to get used to getting up earlier. We were up by 7:30. J was able to work from home that morning to help me get them ready and dropped off. He cooked breakfast while I packed lunches. After a not so good breakfast (they don't like to eat that early) we got dressed and ready to go.

Their backpacks are the same size if not bigger than they are. Seth looked so cute with his on just long enough to snap a few pictures!

The actual drop off was quite chaotic. The teachers were not allowed to take students until the bell rang at 9. Well, the bell never rang! The boys classrooms are right across the hall from the each other which is very nice. We handed Caleb off no problem, not a single tear. Seth was a different story. Bless his little heart, he can't help it that he is a mommas boy! He cried the second he figured out what was going on. I had to just walk away. He needs this time to socialize and learn to be without mom as much as I need it to get things done and have some quiet time! We joked on our way out the door that the school would be calling us to pick up Seth before the morning was over. J and I went and grabbed some breakfast at a place we hadn't been to in several years. It was a nice quiet breakfast, except he spent most of it on the phone due to work! About a month before school started I scheduled a carpet cleaning so we had to be home by 10. (This is one of those things you can't really do when you have 2 kids running around) A little after 11 my phone rang . I started to laugh when I saw the number, it was the school calling. The director was on the line and the first thing she said was for me not to worry-spark the worry! Seth was headed outside for recess and missed a step, he fell and scratched his face. She said he was fine, didn't want any ice and all he said was "go outside." He's a tough little guy! I was reassured he was fine and that was it. I'm just glad it wasn't "please come get your child." The rest of the day flew by and it was time to go pick them up. Seth was napping when I got there. His scratch was a bit bigger than I had imagined.

I woke him, to strange surroundings, so naturally he started crying. We went to get Caleb, a much easier pick up and then headed home. The school day ends right in the middle of their "normal" nap time. I made an attempt to get them to nap once we got home but it didn't work so well. They were both exhausted but overall they had a great time. I am excited for them to learn new things and make new friends this year!

Already Behind

I told myself I was going to be better about posting updates when I decided to start this blog. I officially have ONE post! (I do have a few in "draft" status) But here I am two weeks into this thing and I already feel behind. I know that I am not. No one is keeping track, I am not going to get an F in blogging. I want to be better about this though. It's Wednesday. My goal is to finish all "draft" posts by Friday.
Wish me luck!


Tuesday, September 4, 2012

Weekend Recap

We had a super busy weekend filled with lots of food, football, family and fun! My mom and grandmother came in late Friday night. So Saturday morning, thanks in part to a 6:45 wake up call from Seth, we were up and running around early. It was the official kick off to College Football and we were beyond ready! After I got ready, in my new Tech shirt, I went to get the boys ready. That's when I realized we were not as ready as I thought. Seth did not have one single Tech shirt. I remember looking for some the last few times I've been to Lubbock but I didn't find anything I liked. So I went out on a shirt hunt. I went to Academy hoping I could find something for the day-even if it wasn't my favorite. No luck-not a single Texas Tech item in the whole store, they had UT, A&M, TCU, Cowboys, Rangers, and Mavericks. (I was a little ticked!) I knew of one other for sure place that would have something, Rally House-but it was at least a 25 minute drive to get there. Let me say that the drive was worth it. I had been in this store once before about a year ago. I was not disappointed at all. Their selection was so much better that what I've seen in Lubbock. Seth ended up with 2 new shirts and we also got a new flag to hang outside. Once grandma and I got back home it was time to rest and relax before the game. My mom & Paul showed up just a bit later and right in time for some of J's awesome BBQ. The game was great! Nothing better than a TTU victory!

Sunday, we headed out to the Lake Grapevine. It was still super hot but we hadn't been out since Memorial Day. J bought an inflatable raft for fishing and was dying to take it out. We played in the water, grilled hot dogs, had cheeze-its & capri suns, and did a little fishing. Once the boys were wiped out I took them to the car for nap and we headed home shortly after. It was a pizza and movie kind of night.

Monday, it was Labor Day, so we got to enjoy another day off. My mom and grandma headed home to Lubbock. J's mom and sister came over to visit. We live about an hour away from them and unfortunately don't get to see them too often. J cooked up some awesome fajitas with homemade salsa and I made a carrot cake (out of a box) for dessert. It was a pretty good meal! They left mid-afternoon to head home and I went out to finish up shopping for the boys first day of school. (that post to follow soon) By the time I got home, put groceries away, had dinner, bathed the boys and put them to bed I was ready for a day off! Oh, wait-moms don't get a day off! :) It was a great weekend though even if it was busy!

Sunday, September 2, 2012


Welcome to my world! I have gone back and forth over starting a blog. I love the blog world! It helps me stay connected to friends, family, complete strangers that deal with the same things I do. So, I figured I may as well give it a go. I want our friends and family to stay connected to us. And if I can help one mama, wife, sister, daughter, friend feel like they are not alone then that's a bonus in my book.

I want this blog to be about all areas of my life; my boys, my hubby, family, friends, parenting, hopes & dreams, crafts, exercise & weight struggles, reading, get the idea. I also want to be able to write here so that I get things off my chest and out of my head. I keep a lot inside and this tends to make me a little crazy! This blog will be an outlet for me to write and stay sane!

I hope you find something here to connect to and come back often!